...this is my gift to you who have loyally followed this blog for these ten years...
RT
As I look up the timbers that are the ceiling to my prison
slide against each other as they lock in place. I sigh as I lower my eyes; once
again I am a prisoner of my own making. As I settle in and wrap my wings about
my form I struggle to find a comfortable place. One would think that after all
these years my body would be used to this turret, but such is not the case. It
is uncomfortable to say the least.
What I have seen in the West Country I have made known to
the king. I could see the glint in his eye with each word. He was almost giddy
with excitement. The wicked smile that spread across his face was that of
victor. I could do nothing save watch his antics as he stood and danced a small
dance across the dais before returning to his throne. He looked up at me as his
hand fell to the dirty hair of his new captive, his treasure, his new princess.
I could feel a tear welling up in my eye as she had not the strength to pull
away. Before my exit to the hall my eye fell again to my prize; one last look
upon that which holds me prisoner. My gleaming egg is not so bright any longer
having been hidden and caged in the corner of Whitehall. How I long to again
possess it, to feel the magics that dwell within, to caress the bronze surface
as only a dragon could. It is its touch, its magic that calls to me. Its bottom
where it is cradled against the floor is dark from all the years of stagnation.
It is my last look until I am summoned again.
Now we have both returned to our chambers, but to what end?
In the past I was used to help change the course of battle but now that Jeshion
is no longer what is to become of me? Surely I am no use to him unless he has
an aim to continue to war but in a different direction. Perhaps I am to be
simply one more prize added to his collection. I feel my heart sink at the
thought. How long will I remain a prisoner? As long as he has hold of my prize;
I am powerless.
“Nivä?”
I am startled at the sound of my name. Her voice, as sweet
as new-fallen spring rain slips up the ancient stone as easily as a stream runs
over river pebbles.
“Is that your name? Are you a dragon?”
“I am my child and yes, that is my name.” I close my eyes to
embrace her voice.
“Do you breathe fire like the books say that I have at
home?”
“I do, when it is needed my child.”
“Why do you call me my child? I am not your child.”
“I am sorry,” I reply with a wisp of a smile. “It is often
something the very old call the very young. I will call you Lily if you
prefer.”
“I’m cold again Nivä. I have no blanket.”
“I will warm you then Lily.”
“How will you do that?”
“Trust me Lily.” As I did only a night past I inhale slowly
and let the soul of what I am fill the airs of the musty tower. The heat
without the flame of my life fall against the walls travelling downward as each
brick touches another. Soon the tower is permeated with a warmth unlike any
other on this earth; a dragon’s warmth. “Do you feel the warmth of the bricks
Lily?”
“I do. I feel better now. I am tired.”
“Then you should sleep my child.” I hear the weariness in
her voice.
“I do not want to sleep here any more. I want to go home to
my grandfather.”
“That may not be possible.” Perhaps she does not understand
what has happened though she heard my words. I must remind myself she is but a
child. “Someday perhaps you may go home. Did the king ask you questions?”
“He wanted to know who I was. I had to tell him my name. I
didn’t want to.”
“I see,” I reply. “And who is your grandfather?”
“He lives in Jeshion Hall. It is his home.”
“Your grandfather is the king of Jeshion Hall?” I am taken
aback as I ask.
“I, I think so. He sits on a big chair in the hall. It’s a
lovely chair, soft and warm.”
“Did he ask anything else of you?”
“No. I’m hungry.”
“Sleep now my child. The warmth of the stone will hold you
tight.”
“I will. Nivä, can we go for a ride some day?”
“A ride?”
“Can I ride you like in my picture books?”
“Perhaps some day, my child. We shall see.”
As I hear her I reach out to her thoughts but they begin to
fall away to the world of the night. It has been a long day for her. I as well
feel the weariness begin to take hold over me. Long has it been since I
travelled the skies. I am not used to the exertion. Once such a journey would
be nothing more than a stroll along the shore. Now, tis an ordeal and I feel
the heaviness of my muscles.
I begin to chuckle at the thought of a rider. A dragon
rider! Such has not been seen in a millennia. Once a selected few were chosen
to ride with us among the clouds, but they could not bring themselves to
understand they were never the master. It was a union that was doomed to fail.
Now, it is time for sleep.
I am restless as sleep has eluded me. What few hours I have I
wrestled with, in and out. Something is missing. I feel an emptiness like a
part of myself has vanished. I have been trapped within this chamber too long.
Are my senses dulling that I am no longer aware of the outside world? Has my
usefulness to even my captor become nothing more than folly? I pull my wings
about me tight and close my eyes again.
Perhaps another hour before the dawn. Perhaps. My thoughts
drift to the lower chamber as I contemplate the state of my Lily. My Lily.
Curious that in such a short time my attachment grows with each passing day. I
would never have thought it possible, to befriend someone of her breed, someone
who my kind has been at war with in one fashion or another for untold
generations. What is to become of her, of me? Are we to dwell in Whitehall in
enslavement as our lives run their course? Surely she will be of use to him
when she is older, a handmaiden to remind him of his victory, or a prize to be
dangled towards others of his ilk to sweeten his riches.
My heart aches for her as she sleeps beneath my prison. Now
it would seem there are two prizes that hold me here. Neither one would I now
be able to forsake. Must I see my imprisonment through for her sake? Am I to be
her unseen guardian as she travels what road is before her? How is that
possible since I am not able to protect myself? I am a prisoner of my own
making.
I close my eyes as tightly as I may struggling with these
emotions that now want to overwhelm me. I must ask myself, have I given up? Is
this all that is left of me? For the first time I am forced to look at my own
mortality. Is a life of sadness all I have left to live? I lean against the
ancient walls and hope the last vestiges of night do not elude me. Is this now
my tomb?
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